Well we had another chat on Monday about things. I said that I was not happy to enter couple counselling with sole aim of 'agreeing separation'. It may well be the outcome that we both agree on but that should not be the only aim. I see it involving our current feelings towards each other and their causes.

My wife said that she couldn't discuss things with me because of my anger. Well I have looked into this a lot and anger is quite normal when you feel you are moving apart and one party won't discuss it. It is positively harmful to surpress the emotion, I have been told. I was aware of

Sometimes the complete lack of respect for another person's feelings astounds me. I can never imagine intentionally making an effort to hurt someone else with no remorse or conscience.

This evening, I was having a conversation with my mother in-law about the upcoming American holiday to give thanks for the land our ancestors stole from the Native Americans. We eat turkey and watch football to show our gratitude. While on the phone, my x2b calls my cell twice, leaves a voicemail, then sends a txt message. I don't bother to end a nice conversation with her mother, who is more concerned

Hi, So here I am 6 months after my ex told me he was having an affair with one of my closest friends and that he was leaving me and the children for her.

Cold hard and to the point. Supposedly they had only consumated it 6 weeks before he leaves.

He walks out on 18 years of marriage and 24 years of a relationship. He leaves 2 children (and his dog!) with no guilt and the only comment being - there was a problem that needed solving so I have solved it!

So where has that left me?

I was devastated to begin with.

I petitioned for divorce in early July and made the mistake of naming her as a