I still havent got round to writing more of my blog but I will do.

 Today I need to shout at Ex but I know it would make things much worse so I'm shouting here. 

Tonight for the first time in a year my youngest will stay with me and I will leave him to school in the morning.  It should be a happy event.  Yes I'm happy but also very nervous.  How sad is that to be nervous of my own son.  What if he doesnt want to stay, doesnt like his bed, cant sleep.  I'm keeping my fingers crossed.

 What I'm cross about is the e-mail i just received from Ex....telling me what son eats for breakfast and what he

Not an easy day for many of us on this site.  It can be pretty hard for kids too.

 So best wishes to everyone else who's finding it tricky.  And, for all of us who are parents, I'm sending the best wish of all: that our children come out of this doing the best they can, as caring people in good relationships, doing good in the world.  

 One of my kids saw my soon-to-be-ex today and the other made contact with him.  They both got him presents.  He's not perfect (I could say worse) but he's their dad and it's best for them if they're able to love him and feel loved by him.  It hurts, of  course.

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Decided it was about time i had a night out. When i got back from work i went up to my room and watched some telly. Hubby came home in a rush wondering why i was watching telly in the bedroom and what was wrong with the one downstairs !!! Good start to the evening. I asked if he mind that i go out (not that i need permission, but its always nice to ask) and got 20 questions. Who with, when, why where etc. He rushed about getting ready to go to scouts, kissed me goodbye and said 'see you sometime' in a moody voice. That really made be angry and upset, so i sent him a txt msg saying that we had