Feeling lost but probably shouldnt be.

Today had order agreed that youngest would spend 2 nights per week with me plus one evening for both kids.  Solicitors agreed the whole thing very quickly.  I'm a bit confused as she said this is the final order but if things dont work out I can go back again if i want.

Ex phoned tonight to say that his parents and childminder have refused to let me collect the boys from their houses.  I work full time but over the past month to make the transition easier for the boys I have stopped work early to collect from school.  I cant do this forever.  Yes I could

So what is a blog? I've never done one. This will be a diary,and an outpouring, starting with my week.

Sunday:H picked an argument.Sorry,but you boys have a great way of turning something around totally to deflect from the real issue. I feel that I am justified in being ticked off,but then so does he. He went to bed at 8pm,sulking.I followed,and slept.

Monday:H left for work,didn't speak.All day.Ho Hum,so that's how it's going to be.Tuesday: catalyst day.Had almighty row with daughter 14yrs,but that's normal.She's got teenage-itis.Rings daddy,x-hundreds of miles away.Daddy furious with

Ok -new to this site, I'm still finding my way round it. 

Instructed solicitor 3 days ago, so am veering between elation that I've finally managed to get the courage to do something that I'm sure is right, and complete despair when I think of the effect this will unboutedly have on our 6 year old.

Doesn't help that my husband, rather than being furious when I told him (which judging by his usual reaction is what I'd expected), started crying and declaring his undying love - believe me it makes it harder when faced with emotional blackmail about how I'll ruin our daughters life and how much he