Slept OK last night.

Managed to stay out practically all day today til 10pm and what a lovely day it was – no more rain, sun all the way. I felt very positve about my future, played tennis – yes again, I know, I know but I am going to make the most of it, had another long chat with a friend, honestly I don’t know how anyone could cope without friends.

One thing I was thinking about today, when I was considering how lucky I was to have such supportive friends, was that my hubby and I don’t have any mutual friends. Is this unusual? When something like this happens it must be very

Woke up with the brillaint idea that why not let him keep the house – I have the savings and travel.  I wouldn’t have to worry about bills etc.  Had a few second thoughts about that later, but I enjoyed the idea for a while at least.

Went out to play tennis – have to say these friends who I haven’t told, I did tell today  because they were

Sunday 29^th July

Husband out of the house at 8am – back at 1pm – much as expected.

He came home in a great mood, can’t imangine why. I don’t get how he can face me!

At which point I left the house to go car booting, but again found myself unable to return to the house so went and had a coffee for an hour or so.

Did a lot of soul searching today, and am finding it quite hard to get my thoughts in order to express the way I was feeling.

I was back to getting these feelings suddenly coming at me from nowhere, I would be quite happy – then bang and that huge feeling of nausea.

I had