Well it could be an early Christmas present. My wife has arranged a session with a mutually acceptable couple counsellor next week. I can't believe it has finally happened but am thankful that my wife has done it.

I was beginning to doubt if it would ever happen or if it would be too late for us. Let's hope not.

Must not build up hopes too much. Still a long way to go and realistically I feel that my aims from this have been lowered by time and actions we have both gone through.

For the moment it feels like a real progression but have a real sense of trepidation at the same time. We both

Weekends are different when you have seperated.I have had the most difficult weekend since we parted. Soon2bx 'worked' this weekend, ('working' was what he used to say he was doing when he was cheating)so I had sole responsibility of the two kids. Both have been ill with tummy complaints since last Thursday.Then I got it...

Thought I could depend on my parents, or family for support.. but NO resounding NO from mum and letter to ex saying they weren't there to be relied on in a crisis.

I am so disappointed in them, had words with mum as I told her a few home truths in which she has flounced out

I have been to independant for several years now and here we are the best season of the year is nigh.

As has been siad when life changes you have to move on, and so we do I have got on with things "you have to".

As just another person living on their own again, for several years I have had some bad Christmases, but I Know my my worst time as an adult was 3 years ago, out of work with 4 grandkids all I could get was a little somthing from the £ shop it was crap I know it was but it was a present. I got some awful cards for a £ also.

Then disaster struck again 2 weeks before Christmas kicking me