Well exactly 2 yrs and 4 months down the line since i have split from him , how am i doing ? not very good. little while ago i thought i was getting there slowly but surely but for some reason these last 2 weeks i have been engulfed by pain.My brain knows why i had to call it a day but my heart does'nt understand , i miss being part of that family unit i hate waking up every day as a lone parent, i hate my life being ground hog day.I'm upset he has sent people christmas cards but no card for our children , it feels like we never exsisted to him, dunno if it's because it's this time of the

Well last night was the start of the future got dragged out by some friends who decided to set me up on a blind date to cheer me up. Young lady in question is in the same position I am going through that horrible word Divorce. surprising we had so much to talk about I wonder why. Must admit did have an enjoyable evening but felt like everyone was watching me and have expected x2b to turn up. I would have to thank my two friends for not taking no for an answer it was an enjoyable evening cant understand though why I felt so guilty this morning when I woke up, nothing happened we all went our

So having lost my password and wikivorce never sending me a new one or even not replying to a plea for assistance...I decided to re-invent myself as Sals45 in time for January..a new year and a new beginning??

I actually thought I could cope without you lot..but...I cannot..sure I'm plodding on but just need to talk.

So life is just the same ploddy thing..off work this week with a bad back..the only sick leave this year so I do not feel guilty..

I guess something had to give in the scheme of things..so my body is telling me to slow down and I have...physically.

The last two weeks have been