ranting of a mad cow

i have never done anything like this before so i will apologise now before i start. On thursday 7Aug it will be 1 year since i kicked my now x husband out for having yet another affair. And to say its been a horrible year is a huge understatement. On friday 8 August i bury my mum, my best friend, my strength, my support for the past 12 months .  I also found out that my x never had his x girlfriends name taken off the mortgage, which means i cant buy him out. The house is falling apart and he wont help pay for repairs.  He hasnt paid my fees yet or seen his solicitor since January . So he isnt really inteerested in finding his x to have her name removed. He is perfectly happy living at home, rent free with mummy. To top it all off, my x father in law has been diagnosed with bone marow cancer. 

So ..............can life get any worse??? who knows.

But i do know it can get better. I am stronger now than i was 2 years ago (this is when i found out about my x first affair) But i know i have a long way to go. Maybe keeping a blogg will help. i kept a diary when i first found out about my x's affairs. Mum and I refered to them as "rantings of a mad cow" vol 1-3. The only thing she disapproved of was my colourful language!!! i promise to keep my language squeaky clean when i rant here.