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Jul 31
2008
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This week saw the 9 month mark come and go - 9 months since he left, 9 months of varying degrees of varying emotions, 9 months of finding myself again and growing stronger.
During this period, communication with him has been very sparse, mainly through the sols, as was my request. However this week there has been a flurry of text messages in relation to the possiblity of him buying me out of the house. At first, it was ok, I thought - this is good, we are finally getting somewhere, getting things sorted, but the tone changed and then he said he didnt know what he was going to do - typical, say one thing, then a few days later change his mind! I found the contact quite straining, while I dont mind being amicable and trying to arrange things between ourselves, the way I felt was a sharp reminder of who I used to be, and how he used to make me feel, I couldnt see this for myself at first, a friend did, and pointed out that I am no longer that person, but better, stronger and more self-respecting. I hate the fact that my future is in someone else's hands, but that is the way it is, like it is for so many of us, and I need to accept that. The waiting game continues, as he now appears to have changed his mind about buying me out. What will be, will be, I guess.
My children go to thier dad's tomorrow to spend 2 weeks with him, its quite an exciting time for them, with birthdays and the plans for his wedding in October, the are getting fitted for thier dresses next week, and are very excited about the whole event. And so they should be, seeing thier dad happy is important, and they get on well with their step-mother-to-be, something I am delighted about, I wish them all the best, and hope they never have need to find Wiki.(Just to clarify - thier dad is not the man I'm divorcing - we split several years ago and have mangaed to maintain a good relationship)
Im off on my holidays too, spending time with the man who makes me smile - 10 days together instead of snatched weekends will be bliss, I cant wait!
See you all when I get back - take care of yourselves and each other.
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Have a wonderful time the two of you. You both need it. Take care and don't foget to send us a postcard.... Mike 
