Its been a while since I've written.  My wife left last Thursday.  I helped her to move her belongings in to storage.  The night before she left, we actually went out to a movie.  (I knew her plans to go.)  But on the way home she expressed a desire to remain friends keeping in contact with each other.  I was not and still not comfortable with the dual nature of separation and friendship.

On the week end, we contacted by email.  I expressed my feelings saying that if she wanted me out of her life, then she needed to make a clean break and not look back.  That has come back to hurt.  Since then

Today is our 29th anniversary.  The week leading up today has not been good to say the least.  My wife who is intent on leaving me, wants to stay 'friends'.  I'm having difficulty trying to stay within this boundary.  We are still living under the same roof, but separate...house mates at least until we have some other issues taken care of...

This summer, she had an accident in which she broke her nose and requires surgery now.  This can't happen until some healing occurs, and she gets a referral to a plastic surgeon.  So, she knows that I'll take care of her, and wants to remain close by.  (I

I broke a trust with my wife....I lied to her.  I did not at anytime be unfaithful to her.  She was and is my only one love.  But about two years ago when this happened, our daughter left for university.  We started moving apart.  I did not give her the attention she needed.  She however reconnected with friends from the past (at least two) on line through facebook.

She developed relationships with them once again.  In all this time she thought I guess from my inattention to her,that I was having an affair with someone at my place of work....completetly missplaced...no way.  I love her too