I don't know if my husband will come back. It doesn't look like it at the moment but I can't believe that the man I have known inside-out for 11 years would walk out on his family when they need him most. But I have to be prepared for him not coming back as that's what he's telling me right now.

 So  yesterday I went to see a solicitor. He was rubbish - certainly won't use him for a divorce battle! (I wanted someone who would be outraged on my behalf!!) - but he did give me peace of mind over certain matters. I'd get to stay at home with the children, I get to say when he can see them, he

I've been feeling a bit tearful today - probably the result of too much wine last night! But I decided today that I had to try and move things on to some kind of conclusion - for my sake and that of the children. So when hubby turned up at the hospital (where our son is a long-term patient until the care package has been put into place), I told him that I want him to set a date when we can talk. And when we talk, he has to know where he wants to go with all this.

The problem is, he's got a great life at the moment - one I wouldn't mind having myself!! He's renting a small flat just round the