Thanks for the Blog Comments !

This blogging seems to be very therapeutic. I was really encouraged by the three replies to my first blog, SOMEONE OUT THERE CARES. I would like to reply to the people who commented below

 Marriaa

Thanks for the comments, I am sure that you are correct in that the emotions one experiences come in different orders for different people, sorry to hear that you are having to cope with loss at the moment, loss is a difficult emotion to deal with as there does not appear any way to channel the emotion into something / somewhere positive. I will certainly join chat, although I often have difficulties keeping up with the conversations and my typing speed is rubbish. In addition I have a certain amount of reluctance as my wife used chatrooms almost obsessionally before leaving

Determined

Again thanks for the comments, anger is fortunately one of the emotions that can be channelled into positive  productive actions and I have found this so. I cannot imaginetaking revenge on the woman I loved so deeply (it hurt so much as I typed that, but it is true).

I am beginning to agree with you on the benefits of wiki, I find it much easier at the moment to write my thoughts down and your reply along with others has given me great encouragement to continue

Spooky

Glad that you are feeling sorted, its nice to hear from a fellow Devonite / Devonian (who knows which is right). The weather today has been nice, I hope you got your surfboard out.

Today in the Life of Steve

Trying to keep busy, spent the morning decorating, Even decorating brings about those little two way conversations in your head - "Do I add value to the house, if I buy the wife out it will cost me more, If she buys me out I will get more money, if we both cant afford to buy each other out then we will both get more money"

The real answer I am sure is that the house will be more pleasant to live in and I will be proud of my decorating achievements

Early afternoon spent doing the weekly shop, for the first two weeks I hardly eat anything, not that this mattered too much at the time as I was more concerned with my mental well being. I was slightly overweight, now nearly at target weight (one stone to go).

Again thoughts of my partner crept in doing the shopping "Now I can get what I want to eat and cook it in the way I want to"  I am one of those unusual men who are good cooks.

Due to restart work on Monday after two weeks absence, they have been very understanding and have even offered councelling, an offer I shall take up.

The wife is due to temporarily return from Sweden in three weeks, I have a lingering paranoid feeling that she may get up to no good if she gets in the house whilst I am at work, so have purchased a replacement lock mechanism, so that I can supervise her return and assess her feelings and intentions at that time, she does have as much right as me to be in the house, but I still have some suspicions about her intent (ie. I don't want to see Swedish Lover installed)

Intentions this evening

Walk along the Quay, it is beautiful when the weather is nice, nice evening meal, good shave, I havn't shaved for two weeks and don't want to rush too much in the morning before going to work.