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Jul 12
2008
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I can...........Posted by MMM in dealing with emotions, being single, bad day, accepting its over |
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It's been three weeks since he left...and my oh my what a three weeks its been! The washing machine died, my car failed its MOT, clutch went on Son's car... my old life..stbx would have fixed and sorted all but..my new life.. washing machine sorted..car has MOT ...Son has new clutch...all sorted by me! Yes little old me now HAS to do this alone and do you know what?...I can! Last weekend Son got a parking ticket! Popped into get a sandwich and got a £70 fine! Being the sensible adult "let me sort it" I said, so took it to deal with it and do you know what? I lost it!! Yes little ticket ( A5 size in luminous yellow envelope!) gone for ever, so had to deal with council office direct but have sorted that one too! I sometimes sit and can't quite believe how my life has changed? This time last year I was planning my summer holiday with stbx and now I'm living someone elses life! I didn't choose this life , I didn't want this new life but this is what I've been dealt and I'm coping as best I can. Like many people here on Wiki my life and that of my Son's has been rocked and things will never be quite the same again, but I take strength from you all and thank my lucky stars that I have my two gorgeous , loving, loyal Son's with me. The last three weeks have been up and down but nothing more or less than I expected? I've cried I've ranted and I've laughed but most of all I've coped. I still have a sick feeling inside , I feel really sad at times but I believe this is healthy? We all need to go through every emotion and feeling to survive this horrible stage in our recovery. Still losing weight but have more of an appetite now, and had to buy new work trousers yesterday as was coming down some stairs and had a bad experience with rather large waistband! Sooo not a good look!! Well that's another blog from me, what will today bring? The only certainty is rain! But whatever else happens I will cope as best I can, I will deal with whatever as best I can. I'm feeling positive today so will go with the flow and hopefully have a good weekend. I hope you all have a good one too and we will all find the strength to cope...as best we can! Take care
MMMx
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mrsnomore
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MMM Your blog makes me smile, you are so getting there! Am so pleased for you. Yes its normal and healthy to still have wobbly moments and sadness to what is not to be. But also look at you! Coping, a fantastic sense of humour and true belief in all that you have thats good around you. ((((((MMM))))))) I salute you, hug you and high five you. Yes, you have some great times ahead and some wobbly ones but you have a great outlook and you are coping in buckets and have smaller trousers! Go girl!  |
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Donnylass
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Glad to hear things are looking up, and you are growing in confidence in your own abilities. I can identify with the trousers episode-I am off out now, to treat myself to a new pair of jeans that don't make me look like a tellytubby as they are all bunched up by my belt!!! It's amazing what getting rid of 14st of extra useless weight (ie scumbag) can do!!! Onwards and upwards girl |
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Goodman01
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One day I might post the diary that I kept when I first moved out of the FH, it was a period very strong emotions where I felt entirely useless. But like most bad times, they cant go on forever, so there must good times some where out there, what you are going through now is just part of the journey you need to take to get to a better place! GM |
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