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I think of myself of a decent person...i would never intentionaly hury anyone...i try my best to help people anyway i can...i lived with a cruel nasty man who i tried everyway possable to please him...for years i blamed myself...cos he blamed me for everything..the one day i realised it was him not me...so i left and thats when the worst happened...
He stalked me...threatened to have me killed(a hit man) drugged me...tryed to ram me off the road...abused and beat me..wrote abcenaties about me on the road signs all the way to my kids school...said i was having afairs with every pro (social workers...cafcass officer..he said I was giving sexual favours to the whole police force..even the women!!)His legal team walked out on him one day because he said he saw me kissing the cafcass officer in a room (he was 62) fortunatly for me the cafcass officer had rang his sol to say he could,nt make court that day...Lol.
So then he gets a prison sentance and his parents take over from where he left off..For 3 years i,ve had sols and court cases every month...if anyone read Legalyblondetoo.s blog about me you,ll know wat i went through..i was put on a 3 month suspended sentance and was facing 3 months in prison. Does anyone know how scared i was! and still after all that i keep my chin up...i,m come on wiki i,m always happy and try to be upbeat..i help anyone who needs it..
Dont get me wrong i,m not an angel...but i try...lol.
i try to be strong and get on with everything..
But today i wonder to myself.....Wat did i do that was so wrong in my life because i feel like i,m being punished for something...
Today i was diagnosed with having M.E
Where will it end for me...the more i try to stay possitive about things the more i get kicked down...
WHY ME!!
Lizann x
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divorcelawyer
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| June 27, 2008 | ||
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OMG, HAL, babe, I don't know what to say. I wish I was near so I could give you a hug, a great big kiss and share a huge glug of voddy with you. I wish I could do something to make it all go away. I wish - well, dunno, am speechless, wordless, I just wish it would all disappear for you. Of all the people that sh*t happens to I don't understand why you are getting more than your fair share. You are right, you are a wonderful person - always there with a kind word, never moaning about you own stuff (which frankly far surpasses most), and perhaps that is what you need to remember. You dont deserve this, you are wonderful, kind and in general a beautiful person. If there is absolutely anything I can do to help you please let me know. I am sorry, and I just don't know what else to say. Love ya babes, and keep your chin up...you can get through this as well as you have got through everything else. Amanda xxxxx |
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downbutnotout
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| June 27, 2008 | ||
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Happy, Am really sorry to hear about your latest misfortune. You really could have done without this news. None of us get to choose when/if these bad things happen. But what we can do is choose how to respond when they do. The strength of character you have demonstrated when facing previous misfortunes in your life gives me huge confidence that you can overcome any challenge. And the great news is that through your previous kindness to others on wiki you have saved up a huge positive balance of love and support in the community. I just checked the database and it seems that you are in credit to the tune of 137 virtual hugs. They are there for when you need them. I think now is a good time for one... ((((((((((((((((((((( Liz )))))))))))))))))))))))) DBNO xxxx |
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IKNOWNOW
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| June 27, 2008 | ||
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Liz, Oh babe, really don't know what to say. Well for starters have another virtual ((((((((((((((hug))))))))))))). I had a bad car accident 13 years ago and although I didn't suffer any broken bones or even have to stay in hospital I was off work for a few months. The medical profession questioned whether I had M.E. and linked it with the car accident. I guess what I am trying to say is that M.E. is still in parts a new illness that many questions are still being asked about it and what causes it. There have been suggestions that it is linked to trauma, be this physical or emotional. Maybe this is your body's way of saying STOP, you are hurting, you are in pain. You are allowed to feel it! You are not alone Liz, so many people on this site love and support you and will be wishing you well. ((((((((((((((((((((((((hugs and cuddles))))))))))))))))))))))))))) Like I say, lost for words but if you ever need to talk or for someone just to listen. xx Sarah xx |
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gareth67
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| June 27, 2008 | ||
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Hi HAL, The one thing I'm finding more and more is that life is unfortunatly not fair to the right people, or thats my view anyway. The good thing is that you still get on here and there are lots of friends that can help, and it is good to blog (should be able to get it on the NHS) help me out all the time. Keep your chin up HAL, and if theres anything I can do just let me know Gareth |
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rubytuesday
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| June 27, 2008 | ||
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Liz, my lovely friend. we talked for quite a while about this last night, and I was sorry to get your email this morning, confirming your diagnosis. As you know, Ive had ME for 4 and a half years now, and I fully understand how the diagnosis will make you feel. You will now have different limitations, but once you know what they are, you can adjust your life to fit in with them. The pain will not be there all the time, nor will the brain "fog", your bad days wont be the majority of your days, and you will have long spells of feeling good/ok. The biggest factors for me in helping me focus on getting better are remaining positive that one day I WILL be fully recovered, and meeting my "me sister" on here, who just simply understands what it is like, and how I am feeling on any particular day. having someone to talk to, who understands helps more than I can say. You are not alone in this, Liz, you too have a "me sister" now, I am here for you day and night. Ive just added another 200 virtual hugs to the hug bank, and when they run out, Ill simply add lots more, as will everyone on here. ((((((((((((((((((((((((((hug)))))))))))))))))))))))))) )))))))))) Take care, and keep smiling your beautiful smile xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx |
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happy_at_last
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| June 27, 2008 | ||
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Thanks guys...i never ask u for help but today i needed all the love u gave me....i,m crying now... Thanks guys Much love lizann xxx |
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Daisy040
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| June 28, 2008 | ||
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Lizann we've not spoken much - i dont see you in chat very often, but i am fully aware of what people think of you on this site.....that you are a wonderful person who always makes time for others.....completely unselfish, giving, caring - i cant offer any advice re ME and everything else you have gone through....but i just wanted to give you a hug.... (((hug))) i think the time has come for you to have some "you time" and start thinking of yourself..... use all your friends on wiki for support and love as i know its in abundance for you.... take care lizann amanda xxx |
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daisygreen
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| June 28, 2008 | ||
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Hi Lizann, sorry to hear about your news, thats really tough. I had a serious illness just prior to the split and divorce, I spent a lot of time dwelling on the unfairness of it all, unfortunately thats life. In the same way that wiki is great for divorce, I found something similar for my particular problem, and it really helped me through. I'm in remission, but the treatment was tough and I do feel more tired, I've learnt to adapt, just as you will in time. Sending you a virtual hug ((((()))))) daisygreen |
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bertie670
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| June 28, 2008 | ||
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Sorry to hear this Lizann and I hope you are able to find a way through this like you have all the other c..p thats come your way. Best wishes |
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mankydog
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| June 29, 2008 | ||
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lizann, There are very fews thing in life that move me emotionally but ur blog has really touched me, u give so much yet like everyone on here ask so little in return, it seems so unfair that u as one of lifes genuine people, who is filled with nothing but goodness, is forced to deal with this illness on top of all the emotional hurt u have had to suffer. I know that u have the strength to overcome this and keep the smile on ur face to the outside world but in those dark moments when it slips i hope you find that you have many friends in here you can turn to for help and support, in the same way you have helped many of us through ur shared experiances. Keep ur chin up liz and stay happy at last, if theres anything that I can do just let me know i will be there for you (((((((((HUGS))))))))) Take care stay safe Love Paul XXX |
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