Today

I woke up very late. He texted me that he's on his way to take kids to school. Rush rush rush .. kids off to school on time with decent breakfast and full lunchboxes. How do I do it? I do it like all mothers do it, with love and speed!

I go to work. I have to stay late at a meeting so he agrees to pick up kids and feed them. There is food in the fridge. I come home exhausted. Such a long day with little sleep, little food and a lot of rushing.

He's in the kitchen. He looks at me long and hard, I avert my eyes, say hi and go straight up. I can't even look at him. Haven't been able to look at him for a while now.

I flop on my bed, my heart is racing, having walked fast and long. The girls rush up for kisses cuddles, tickling biting pulling pushing (they to me..!). My boy comes up like a little gentleman at first, then joins in the crazy.. ! I send them down to spend time with him before he has to leave

He calls from downstairs asking if I am ok. He says I look tired. Oh really? Now he notices? Too little, too late, I am afraid. So I laugh it off and say I don't look tired, I look gorgeous (I don't believe it, but I say it anyway). The girls giggle. The boy smiles. I flop back on the bed.

I still won't see him and won't let him see me.

He leaves. I relax. I change quickly, shower my girls, and put them in bed. Now son is also ready for bed. I am having a well deserved coffee and chocolate.

Such a nice day.. :)