Finally It's All Over

The last few months have flown by since i last wrote on my blog. I'm still with my wonderful fella from Chelmsford and the relationship is going from strength to strength. Hopefully moving down to be with him permantly in October, once my daughter has settled in with her long-term boyfriend. My house sold last Friday 30th May and should get the pennies from the sale today. Not much consideing what i put into the property but at least i wont owe on the mortgage. What rogues they were ! Charging £15,500 as a penalty for ending the mortgage early. Wrote to them a few times to try and get them to reduce it, but they wouldnt budge. Well at least i'm now mortgage free and i suppose i should be gratefull for that, although i wish i had been more sensible with the money side of things. I applied for a simplified divorce as i'm in Scotland and he signed all the papers without a fuss and its before the judge as we speak, so hopefully i should have my papers in next few weeks. Hve already started going back to my maiden name. Don't knowwhat my ex is up to. Last time i spoke to him last Tuesday he still had no where to live. Pisses me off big time as he has had over 4 months to find somewhere else for him and his 4 girls and it seems to me that he does'nt give a fuck. How could you treat your family like that its so selfish. But then again thats what you are. I would have fought tooth and nail to get a roof over my families heads but hey, its not my business anymore, so why should i care. Probably beacuse whenever i do talk to him he makes this whole thing seem my fault. I walk away feeling that i am being blamed for everything. And its not my fault at all. I didn't ask for all this to happen. It was his decision. He didn't love me anymore, but didn't want me to leave either, so i had to make the final decision and walk away. I'm so glad i had the strength to and i have Steve to thank as well. His support was immeasurable and i'm so glad i have him in my life.

Only thing left to say really is onward and upward. I hope anyone reading my blog will take some comfort and cheer from it. It started out as a way of putting all my feelings down on paper and i have loved the support i have got from this site and all the people on it. Making new friends is the best. I will still come on from time to time and try and help out others as best i can. Until we meet again .........

Pauline

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