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May 25
2008
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Another DayPosted by MMM in my day today, money and finances, his new woman, children, breaking up |
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Morning
Didn't sleep well at all. My head is spinning, it's getting nearer the "telling our Sons day "and although the relief of the secret being out is what I've been striving for I'm actually terrified, angry and really fed up today! Doesn't help that s2bx was horrible to me yesterday saying things like " but you will have a mortgage free home" and "why are you so miserable"....does he really care at all that our Sons are going to have their security taken away from them? My eldest will be home from his first year at Uni and all he talks about is his new house for next year and his plans and s2bx just laps it up knowing that I know that he is probably been with "her ". All very well that I wont have a mortgage, a mortgage that we would start to pay off next year anyway ( been together 26 years) but his lack of care that the home I eventually have will cost me to run it!!! I work in a school, salary not fantastic but this is the job that I love and that I got to fit in with the house moves we have made around the country to accomodate his work!! Not living in cloud cuckoo land and know that I will probably have to change jobs, but I have enough change in my life at the mo and the fact that I work term time will allow me to be here for my Boys. Sorry for the rant but noone else to rant at! Off shopping today, not retail therepy a must as I have only one pair of jeans that fit me...weight loss means I've nothing that fits and things look awful on me. So as I'm off work this week and out and about I need to look good!! ...oh and I'm not paying!! Looking forward to tomorrow when he is back to work, I cope much better when I don't have to look at him!
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alan670
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| May 26, 2008 | ||
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MMM I too found life much easier once people knew what was going on. Your boys won't judge you but will want to know. They probably already suspect something is up. I found telling my parents the most difficult, expected all sorts of comments but only got real genuine and loving support. In fact thinking back everyone who I consider a friend has been full of support. You are not alone. Alan |
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Donnylass
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| May 26, 2008 | ||
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MMM-I can identify with all that you are saying, but I can only speak for myself. It was horrendous telling our 3-which inevitably was left to me-even tho they were 25, 22 20. But, once it was all out in the open with family, friends, neighbours, work colleagues etc I felt so relieved and I have been bowled over the support that I have received-and from some of the most surprising sources. It is less stressful, not having to put on a front to others. Don't get me wrong, life is still a struggle some days-I am not finding it as easy as my stbx to 'recover' from a 27yr marriage. However life is definitely better and I wouldn't dream of going back to my 'previous life'. Things will get better for you. You can get a lot of support from your wiki friends too-as Alan says, you are not alone. Take care  |
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Goofyfoot
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| May 26, 2008 | ||
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MMM, telling your sons won't be easy, but they will help give you the support you need. As for the jeans, take this as good news, I lost a lot of weight in the first year as I permanently felt sick and didnt eat much (or not the crap that I was) and didnt even want my one true vice - coke (cola). After a year I dirfted back into the old eating habits and unfortunately am now a bit 'cuddly' again! If you can afford to lose the weight treat it as a little good thing, if not, please be careful and make sure you eat properly. Good luck, GF. | |
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denmanra
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| May 26, 2008 | ||
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mmm, you will find your kids a source of stregnth, and your fears and feelings are no stranger to the people on this site, lots of good people on here , tap into thier energy and draw on their experiances. take care ricky |
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marriaa
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| May 26, 2008 | ||
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Mmm,remembered talking to you this morning ,everything wil be fine ,we are here for you.take care | |
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gareth67
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| May 27, 2008 | ||
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Hi again MMM, Your kids will not judge you, your real friends will understand, you family will support you. Don't worry just remember hakuna matata. Gareth |
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