So, here I am sitting in my flat, logged on to a website, reading through posts about how other people are going through it, chatting on the forum about nothing that specific, being all familiar with peopl e who other than the fact that they are going through hell just like me, I dont know from adam!

Its a bit odd this, but for some reason I think that it helps me, to be able to write about what I have been through and, then sometimes to be able to help somebody else by giving them support.

Every now and then I get thanks, I never know who from, and even if they did show me who had thanked me I

So, this weekend I had the children, and we had a great time, cinema, children's parties, making camps in the lounge out of the parts of my sofa and lots of laughs.

I finally made my mind up about the one that I am not sure about, I am not sure about her, so I have said we should call it a day.  She hasn't been totally straight with me, and I have told her that I am not really ready for all of this.  Too complicated relationship stuff, one problem is that she is a mum at the same school as my kids, her daughter is much older than my kids, whilst there is very little chance of the kids

So another week goes by, this week I set myself the task of getting back in touch with an old friend, doing something about finding a job that I find more challenging, drinking only at the weekend (almost there now!) and exercising more.

 Well I have to report, that I have been able to put a tick against every one of these seemingly simple tasks, and just as I thought I feel like bit by bit I am putting my life back in order.

The old friend, who I hadnt spoken too for probably 5 years plus, knew me and the ex pretty well, from before we were married, she said that she wasnt surprised that we