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May 04
2008
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Ive seen him....wedding rings now off !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Posted by Daisy041 in Untagged |
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god what a nightmare....im sooooooooooooo f***ing angry its unbearable...thats it enough !!!
basically i was going to meet some friends for lunch and drove through the area where his "friend" lives...and guess what I saw his car !!!! it was parked up facing the way he would to drive home if that mankes any sense, anyway i just carried on driving but with that really sick sinking feeling.....i felt like driving back and sticking a note on the windscreen !!!!! saying "glad you've had a lovely shagging weekend with her!!!" but i didnt....
anyway bout 5 mins later i pulled over and phoned my mum i was shaking so much and guess who happened to drive by me....yep him !!!!! he had obviously seen my driving past and came after me, he just stared at me a really filthy stare as if to say what the beep are you doing here........i drove off quickly hoping he wouldnt follow me and he didnt...it was such an awfal moment !!! anyway i had to get my friends birthday present so when i finally stopped driving i phoned my mum back...
i know what i feel now, embarrased, ashamed, that i wasnt good enough for my husband..ive probably said that in a prev blog but i cant remember...i feel that i didnt do enough to please him ? wasnt the good wife, am not pretty enough for him and the list goes on !! what did i do wrong...
but its all become very real now...my heads clearer....
he's basically been staying with her over the weekend and is probably very happy....
he hasnt contacted me at all since thursday re the house or seeng me...and after today i dont want him to..
ive taken my wedding rings off to..they are on the other hand, look quite nicely actually lol !
it feels wierd though....i cant believe ive seen him today in error and he still hasnt contacted me.....
thank god i was looking my best...
the trouble is i dont want to see him, dont want to hear from him, but i do really so that i can ignore him, cause him so pain...
the guys a complete looser...and i hate him !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
he's put me through hell - so much for friendship and all that shit...he can get lost... no more me being lovely and trying to please, no more me waiting around...no more me contacting him....no more anything !!!!!!!!
as from today i am a single independant young woman who can do what she wants when she wants and with whomever she wants !!!!!!!!!!!
my life is my own, not anyone elses...........well its mine and my cats anyway !!
i only hope i feel this way later, tomorrow and the next day....
thanks blog...
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kidsinbulgaria
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Sometimes you can just never please some people. Some people always want more. He should have loved you for who you are, or if he had a major problem with an aspect of your looks/life then he should have been man enough to air the topic and discuss it with you. People always say 'we'll stay friends' but it rarely truly happens. Only when they want something. Normally takes both of you settling into happy post divorce lifes to work out, when all the bitterness and petty mud slinging / penny pinching has diminished. Have you seen the photo in the gallery where someone sprayed a car with 'hope she was worth it'. Big giveaway to the Police who it was. Be more subtle and spray his with 'You never told me you were married' and get her into trouble with Police instead !!! |
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gaza
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daisey : just spoke to u ,said i would read ,sorry and sad for u , today is the day i think u will start blossoming , as the new person inside dying to get out. Go forth and slay um daisey. Its not nice to know or see were the criminals lair is mines only 75yrds away but i think today has been the start of u realizing its time to move on daisey dont belittle yourself thats what he wants you to do , your someones princess, hes out there daisey , good luck gaza |
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denmanra
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christ you nearly blew me away then daisy, go get em tiger! riicky |
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FBGS
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I'm sorry you had to experience that but in a way this was the event that may make you feel differently about him. I think I put it in a blog or chatted to you yesterday about it. Until you have that real change in outlook then things don't and won't change. Now they may. You are no longer beating yourself up about what you perceived as your problems; your looks, your ability to please him, whether you were good enough. You now realise that he has the problems and that you have been fine all along! What a relief that can be! Instead of directing that feeling of failure at yourself, getting angry with yourself, feeling guilty about your actions, you now realise that directing those feelings at someone else is long overdue. I feel sorry for the shock you experienced and all that anger but use it and don't do anything rash. FBGS |
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Falk
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Its good in away that U found out. U will be ok now that this looser is out your life. Mark this day. The only way is up. You are worth 10 of him and U didnt do anything wrong. Laters Falk | |
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IKNOWNOW
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Well Daisy hunny, not sure whether I should be commenting on this blog as I am of the female gender. Strange how having a picture of you, miss gorgeous-go-get-em, gets all the fellas responding to your blog. No, seriously Daisy, sounds like you are now realising that losing you is his problem not yours. Yes you are angry and p***ed off but hey, all part of the healing process. Always here for you if you need a chat. xx Sarah xx |
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gareth67
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you go kick ass and forget about him, enjoy | |
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