July was a shit month. He was away for most of it, which gave me breathing space. Funny thing is i didn't miss him when he was away. Does that say something? Have spoken to him on 3 or 4 occassions and sent e-mails, but nothing changes, so decided to try again yesterday. I told him i sometimes felt like leaving and going it alone and he said he understood, but he still didn't know what he wanted. We spoke at length about everything and he admitted that he actually resented my relationship with his 4 girls, as he sems to have lost the closeness he nce had with them. I told him if he spent more

Haven't blogged for a while as didn't feel i had much to write to be honest. Nothing has changed in my life, same old routines. My hubby was away with his Scouts for the weekend (again) and came home on Sunday night around 9.45pm. Within in half an hour he'd ask if i would mind if he popped to the pub for a drink. I said no, whatever. I didn't even get an invite, nice eh! Went to my bed instead with a good book. Good books are becoming a big part of my life at the moment lol. Good job i enjoy reading.

Hardly saw anything of him yesterday either. He was working late at work doing wages and

Decided it was about time i had a night out. When i got back from work i went up to my room and watched some telly. Hubby came home in a rush wondering why i was watching telly in the bedroom and what was wrong with the one downstairs !!! Good start to the evening. I asked if he mind that i go out (not that i need permission, but its always nice to ask) and got 20 questions. Who with, when, why where etc. He rushed about getting ready to go to scouts, kissed me goodbye and said 'see you sometime' in a moody voice. That really made be angry and upset, so i sent him a txt msg saying that we had