Well, I have to update you dear blog.

I am still in a bad way today and can't think of anything else other the my lost time with my children.

As far as dating goes, I am obviously far to fragile to be able to handle this yet. It seems my date last night was not quite as keen as I had hoped. I am a bit knocked by this which is why I have realised I am much too fragile to cope with the possibility of rejection. After all, divorce and seperation is all about rejection. To risk the possibility of further rejection is foolish in the extreme! 

So I will be re-evaluating and licking my wounds for a

You know, it is the most wonderful thing in the world to wake up feeling content.  It's not about the house you live in (I know this as I currently live in a hastily rented hovel!) and it's not about money.

It's about knowing who you are and accepting the way things are and most of all, looking forward to a wonderful and exciting future. It is a long way from the one I planned though! My family is gone as I knew it. I still have my children  even though I was demoted to a part time Dad. But part time Dad is better then never having experienced the joy that they bring me.

It is a future full

Well, I have started divorce proceedings. I had hoped to avoid this for so long but really it was always inevitable. I don't feel too bad now as I am well into recovery but it is still very sad:(

I haven't told her yet as I want to wait until I lodge the papers at the court. But it should be pretty simple as we have already agreed all the financial arrangements. Neverthless, I am expecting a pretty bad month as she can be unpredictable and is (and always has been) a truly expert liar.

Simple yes. Easy? No!

Andy