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Jun 03
2007
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How did we get to this? When did it start to go so horribly wrong? Wish i had a magic wand that i could wave and make things better, but this is the real world, not a fairy tale. You tell me you care for me deeply, but don't know if you love me anymore. That your unhappy with everything and that for the last few years you feel like i have come in and taken over everything and that you feel like a non-entity. Where did all the money go? We are morgaged to the hilt and can still barely afford to keep going. But you cannot let me walk away just yet. You need to get your head sorted out and find the answers before you can tell me if you still want me 'on board'. Its all about you. You never ask me what i want or how i'm feeling. When we do talk about 'our situation' its always me that has to approach you and start the conversation. I told you how i felt the other night and you said you would get some help to 'find yourself'again, but i'm still left in limbo. The other night when we went out i got drunk. I was angry and upset and when we left the club in a hurry because you went into one of your selfish moods, we ended up arguing and discussing the situation again all the way home. I said to you that if you didn't love or want me to just let me go. I also said that i was scared to walk away in case in was making a big mistake and you said the same, but i feel i am still stuck in limbo. I don't know what to do for the best. Should i stay and hope you will sort your feelings out, or should i cut my losses and run. Run back home where i feel i should be. I feel so confused and lost.



