Why do I keep on punishing myself? X2b is gone, no return, stop building up expectations.

Why is X2b gone - X2BS' BF

X2bs' bf and X2b are now an item. There is no escaping this, this is not likely to change in the short term.

Their time together is strengthening their bond, not weakening it.

X2b is probably fucking about with my head, playing mind games to keep me sweet.

I HAVE had enough.

There is still no escaping the fact I love her, this is at an emotional level. Something I don't actually want to change. I may have to if I am to retain any level of sanity.

Why why why why why.

X2b no

XTB,

There are times I wish we'd never met. Not because I've regretted our time together, not because the pain of separation has been too much, not because my feelings for you have somehow changed and diminished. No the reason I sometimes wish we'd never met is because tomorrow the me you'd never seen before may meet you somewhere and maybe you would like the me you'd never met. Maybe the me you'd never met would become close to you and somehow we would know there was something special between us. Maybe the bond would get stronger and the me you'd never met would become an important part

If a picture paints a thousand words then let me paint a picture with my words of love for you.

My thousand words of love begin with the discovery of my heart, I never recognised the strength of my feelings for you until I lost you. So much truth in the adage "you don't know what you have until you lose it".

It is difficult to say something new about love that hasn't already been said, forgive me the clichés, recognise they are written with feeling.

Colours are brighter,

Songs have more meaning,

Food is much tastier,

Scents are sweeter,

I live in the moment,

My heart is complete,

With you

"Dawn