Keep Strong and don't let anyone judge you x

Hiya I've found Wikivorce through a friend in 2008 and since then made many many great and wonderful friends who have helped me through my break up (20 years together) which truly astonished and devastated me. We all have different backgrounds, different paths and experiences, I personally was a very extrovert person but very shy and frightened inside and when I found my husband I thought I had found the answer to why we are here, to love and to be loved. I do believe our childhood sculps us into what we become in later life. Since my marriage breakup I went through some very very dark times even trying to end my life but I'm so glad now that I have kept strong and am back on the path that is life. I did alot of things that I never thought I would since my life changed on that day my husband left me, I didn't know how to cope and did the only things I thought I could to get through each day. I do not regret these things because I harmed no one but I knew that the person I am wanted to be with someone as surely life is about being happy and sharing, I have made so many mistakes but they have taught me lessons in life that need to be learned and have made me a stronger wiser person, I think that is what life is about. I want to thank all my good friends for their support and just to say that I know I am a very good person and would never hurt anyone intentionally, I have no one to answer to, no one but no one is better or worse than anyone else although some seem to think so but that is their problem. I love life and I love people, yes there are good and bad all over but we choose which side we want to be on and I am happy knowing that I am good, so please don't let anyone judge you (because they do) stay strong and whatever helps you through these times without harming yourself or others then so be it. I now know that the what I went through was for a reason and I don't regret it or feel guilty in anyway, we are all human and all unique but I am living proof that we can get through this with the help and understanding of true friends. I am so happy now I have found what I have been searching for, will it last? Who has the answer? The one thing I know is that no matter what, I will be able to go on and believe in myself with or without a partner but isn't life so lovely when we do share our love with that special person. I have worked hard all my life to the extent that I exhausted myself and was doing so much for other people, we have to look after number one in order to care for others but without being selfish, judgemental or greedy. Sorry if this sounds like a sermon but wanted to get it off my chest. Keep strong people and if you ever want to talk please drop me a line, I'm here to help. Love Biffy x ps still not divorced after more than three years but the ball is rolling so hopefully things will work out ok, I will do my best to get only what I am entitled to but if it doesn't work out then I will move on, love and peace to you xxx