Since I got divorced this march, I was in such a state and all the kind wiki ppl helped me.

Without this site, I wouldn't have survived this horrible time.

All the time, I was getting help and never could be able to help anyone. I am sorry for that.

Also recently looks like I upset someone who was really nice and kind to me which is my regret.

Now I at last solved remaining problems with my ex and feel great. Still on AD and have severe panic disorder but I think it will get better in time. Still not eating well but also it should get better in time.

As even if I remain here, I don't think I can

Last week after about 4 months, I met up with my ex.

He kept ignoring us although he had to pay back to my mum.

But suddenly he contacted me and I decided to meet him with mum. The meeting was tearful but thought it was okay. He brought money as well and promised my mum to pay back from now on.

But from next day, he started texting. For example, "I don't know I should send you text, but I feel like we are still married, I am sending one. Just finish work.". Also he dearly loved my rabbit, I sent him pics. Then he told me, or not told but clearly inclined it would be good if we could start

As my ex cheated, I was only thinking about that damege.

But as I started to calm down and be able to talk about my marriage to my close friends, I realised a few things which I could not notice.

My ex was a cheater, but (or because of that) he was extremely posessive and jealous person. For example, it was really childish of him but I have a favourite band who's singer is very good looking and I was listening them often. But since I started to live with him, I was unable to do so as he got really moody. It was also the same when I watched any films which my favourite actors were in them. When