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Mar 28
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So this is it. In 48 hours I will be out of my home, and unlikely to return. It's down to the nitty-gritty of packing what I need to take with me right away until I find somewhere to live, and putting everything else in boxes so I can come back and collect them later. Nearly all visible traces of me will be gone, except for one room, and that's what's going to hurt me the most. It feels like I'm simply erasing myself from family history like some sort of Stalinist revisionist purge.
But more importantly, it's the last 48 hours with my kids before moving out becomes a reality for them as well as for me. My wife's away, so it's just them and me, as it has been all week. And I've thoroughly enjoyed it. We've got on better than ever before, and the arguments, the fights, and the stress that have been a feature of family life for years just weren't there. We've talked, and we now have a much stronger bond than we did just five days ago. They've given me so much support and love, it's made all the difference between me slinking out of the house with my tail between my legs and walking out with the confidence that I'm not a bad person after all, and I'm certainly not the bad father my wife says I am.
This weekend is for them. I don't know what we're actually going to do with the time, but we're all determined it'll be two days that we can all treasure, whatever happens. Monday can wait.
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Donnylass
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| March 29, 2008 | ||
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Wishing you much luck. You don't have to lose your kids just because you are splitting from their Mum. They are a tribute to you will give you strength in future. They need you- you need them Take care stay strong donnylass x  |
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marriaa
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good luck,whatever you do keep your children very close.Hope it ends amicably. | |
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Elle
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Mong, I was in very similar circs to you 8 years ago. I was a beaten vulnerable mess and from the first day my x set out on a dispicable mission to erase me from our childrens lives....and succeeded!! Please take care of yourself and seek the support that I didnt have/was unable to find/was refused to prevent your children suffering the loss of a parent. I hope you have a wonderful weekend and wish you all the best Elle |
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denmanra
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good luck, i think its a realisation that at some point the pain must stop for the kids, all they want is peace and quiet, and they deserve that, they are very wise and will talk with thier feet in terms of decisions , well mine will as they are at that age, however, enjoy your weekend. take care ricky |
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mishmine
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| March 30, 2008 | ||
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you are going to be fine. you have a wonderful weekend with the kids, they will not allow you to be forgotten. they love thier dad, in time you will know what is going to happen. you have been a great support to me, throgh chat and your blogs, and i would like to thank you for that. take care of you mish |
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Falk
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I know what erased feels like. But you have a new life ahead of you. I found life on the outside is strange at first and rubbing out a chapter still leaves marks on the paper. Falk | |
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