Mediation..A begining to an end

we had our first mediation meeting yesterday, i would say it was most frightning, to find yourself in this situation is a realisation but i guess its a sign that things have moved on and we wont to get things sorted. I came out of it feeling pretty good even though there is a long way to go.

She agreed that it was all her fault and that she wanted me to be happy going forward. She still wants to be with the kids and provide her mum with a home, in reality with my travelling all i have done is keep the process going with her and him in being around to give her space to be with him while i have been at home with the kids when i can,. She wants me to be happy and have a life, my life for the last 3 years has been unhappy, especially with her, but i have been there for my kids, and to lose that element will be hard, but they will make thier own decisions and she may be in for a shock, but i cant be there for them all the time, and i dont feel i should be responsible for her mum even if it meant a built in baby sitter while i was a way.

She wants everything now i think him, the kids, and the house or a house. I dont wont to be taken for a fool, even though i have been for so long,. I guess its about damage limitation, i was not at fault, but will pay i feel. lets hope she keeps to her word, she says she cares what happens to me lets see how things progress, its abegining to an end i guess., But its something i should have dealt with a long , long time ago.

take care

Ricky.