Yesterday is a whole day away-phew!

Got up early-no sign of b*****d, + he was the one who had booked the appt with the valuer from the estate agents! I made sure everywhere was tidy for when the agent arrived ( in the rain + howling gale) promptly at 8.30. He was well on with his work when b******d bowled up at 8.45! He didn't seem surprised to see me still there. He was adamant that he wasn't late-but then he thinks he is God therefore he can stop time!! He had a good try at pointing out negative things to the valuer, but he just asked if he could get on with his work-my hero!!

As I was

It's only lunchtime, but today seems to have dragged on forever! Mind you I suppose if you wake at the crack of dawn, that's inevitable.

Cleaned the house-again, ready for the valuer coming round tomorrow-I notice bastard is no-where to be seen!!

Washed the car.

Called at a neighbours but shes gone out-how selfish!

Texted a friend-she rang back for a chat, but now she has to make lunch for her partner.

Rang my Mum-all my family live in M/c so not near enough just to call in on. Told her I was having a good day-well, it could be worse, so technically I am telling the truth!

Got to sort out some

Well, here I am-1st time on a site like this. There are obviously a lot of people in a similar place to me-is that comforting? No, it's sad.

Here I am on a saturday night on my own. It's 7 weeks tomorrow since I realised the marriage was over + what a time that has been. Overhearing him on the phone telling his brother we were seperating-news to me!! Then finding THOSE pics-of him having sex with some tart-with a camera I bought him-I was even going to buy him a better 1 for his birthday at the end of Feb!!

I went to a solicitor-taking a memory stick with the photos on + a copy of his CRB check