Felt much happier when i woke up this morning, maybe because the anti-ds are out of my system, i blame them for feeling so low last week. I spent the day with my family, went out shopping, cleaned the house & rang a few friends i havent seen in awhile. Stbx rang & i told him where to get off, i was really proud of myself for not falling for his lies again. Going to help my aunt decorate her living room tomorrow so thats a full day planned, i must be feeling better to offer to decorate lol

Anyway, thats my blog for today, feeling inner peace at last and looking forward to my bed soon, and yes,

I'm finding it so hard to move on with my life. Tonight i was looking forward to a night out with my best friend, she let me down just as i started getting ready, said she didn't feel well. How on earth do i get out to meet people & hopefully find someone new if i'm stuck in the house all the time? I realise i need more friends but i'm stuck. After spending 16 years with my ex I find i hardly know anyone, how sad is that? I hate weekends as everyone is out enjoying themselves & i have no kids to worry about, i should be out having fun!

Got to change my life somehow, any ideas much

I'm finding life difficult since yesterday, not sure if my anti-ds are to blame but i just feel so very down & cry all the time. I'm tired & don't feel like talking to anyone on the phone either. Even typing in here is hard work tonight.

I'm hoping that a good night's sleep will make me feel better & tomorrow will be a better day, i know it can't be any worse so thats a