Well since my last blog a few things have happened.

I had a fab holiday with my son for two weeks after which he went away with his mum for 10 days. I did not this year get a moan about all the things I had done wrong whilst he was with me - had a few complaints before I went.

 I spoke to my solicitor who moved my court date until 30/9 and he seems lesss concerned than me as it is scheduled for only 10 minutes. He thinks it will just be to confirm no undue influence but did say he could not guarantee there was more to it than that. I have spoken to STBX who confirmed she has written to the

So one year has gone by.  It had to be the most shocking year ever.  To be abandoned is so hurtful, so painful.  To be emotiionally abused scars you.  Sure you find the strength to carry on but you'll never be the same after the pain.  You can't look at love with the same pure naive eyes you once did.  If one ever gets lucky enough to experience a love again it isn't and will never be the same.  Perhaps its better to be a realist than a dreamer.  Now that you've gone through what you thought was impossible you'll be prepared next time rather than surprised.  We can develop our thick skins and

Do I see a light at the end of the tunnel? Dare I take a peep?

I don't want to get carried away but the last few days have been "surprising" for want of a better word.

Ex now wants to mediate and, although I'm still wary, yesterday I received confirmation from the police that her allegations of harassment and computer hacking (not sure where that one comes from! I struggle with Windows XP so I hardly think I could hack anything, except spittle...!) wouldn't even make it to court.

That has taken a huge weight off my shoulders. You hear all these stories of how The Harassment Act (which was really