Today's weight was 14 stone 1 pound. Not very good at all :( My goals for last month were: to lose 4 pounds (failed miserably) to be able to do 10 push ups (I can do 15) to be able to do 30 sit ups (I can do 30) So my goals for this month are: Lose 4 pounds To be able to row 2000 metres in 10 minutes To be able to run 2.5 miles in 20

Just wanted to wish everyone a Happy New Year, especially to all those who have supported me through 2012. No doubt 2013 will continue to be a rollercoaster for all of us, no doubt there will be more downs to come on this ride but as we come back up after each down I think we are each probably a little bit stronger. So here's to recognising that we are getting stronger and to being even more fabulous by the end of 2013. Dees

I have a lot of time for introspection at the moment, as I'm not currently working and am largely sitting at home all day. As part of proceedings I have had to request my medical records and looking through them was interesting. As a young child I was always in trouble at school. I was often violent and a very difficult child. I don't remember most of this because it mainly happened when I was quite young but my aggressive behaviour has become something of a family legend. I would literally empty the contents of my bedroom down the stairs every night after school, I almost got expelled