Despite only actively using about this site for a week - this is where I find myself on a Monday morning knowing that I have to go to work when I barely feel able to put one foot in front of the other. I know that it''''''''s over & I''''''''ve known it for a while but today is the day that it''''''''s "real". I don''''''''t know where to put the pain and the weariness so I''''''''m parking it here for the day. While I''''''''m at work, could I ask all you wonderful people to kick it, laugh at it, disrespect it and refuse to give it any time? Hopefully this means that when I get home & pick

Wow. Sometimes I think she''s actually crazy. Really crazy. Monday devolved into a yelling session and I am not even sure why. Finally I snapped and yelled back. Tonight we met to talk about a few issues and I was trying to get out of there fast to avoid more yelling but she found that disrespectful and snapped. The yelling started again.

When she yells and gets angry the mean stuff comes out of her mouth. Today it wasn''t mean at me it was threatening around access to see the kids. Nice. The thing is, right now, she has the control and she knows I care. A lot. She yells at me how clear it is

I left at 5 a.m. this morning and spent all day in and out of airports to get to my new destination. The entire time I held onto my phone as if it were my husbands hand. I was wanting him to text me so bad. I broke down crying every time I had the opportunity to turn my phone back on. My father picked me up from the airport and I look around so at a loss because it''s just not home. My home is with him. I love him so much and I feel like i''m never going to be happy without him. My very soul feels like it wants to jump out of my body and fly back to him. I don''t know how i''m going to get