For the last seven months or so my stbx and I have been swapping places every week so the kids didn''t have to move at all. This was good in the short term but as it became apparent that we weren''t moving toward reconciliation I knew it would not stay this way. Moving every week was killing her and she finally said she would not do it any longer. Fair enough.

So now the 2 bedroom apartment that we rented is my home and the family house is hers. We have two girls aged 14 and 11 and a boy aged 8. The arrangement we have come up with, for now, is that the kids will be at my place every other

I am more than a little scared of this one. It was June 20, 2011 when I had my surgery and found out the lump in the left side of my neck was cancer. Surgery was awful and radiation was even worse. I got through it though and showed myself I am a heck of a lot stronger than I ever knew.

I have a really similar lump on the right side of my neck now. It feels the same so I am worried. I''ve made an appointment to have it checked out. I don''t hide from these things. But I am scared. I really do not want to do surgery and radiation again. For those of you who have done this - you know what I

Wow. Sometimes I think she''s actually crazy. Really crazy. Monday devolved into a yelling session and I am not even sure why. Finally I snapped and yelled back. Tonight we met to talk about a few issues and I was trying to get out of there fast to avoid more yelling but she found that disrespectful and snapped. The yelling started again.

When she yells and gets angry the mean stuff comes out of her mouth. Today it wasn''t mean at me it was threatening around access to see the kids. Nice. The thing is, right now, she has the control and she knows I care. A lot. She yells at me how clear it is