what a sad day today , for our friends old and new and those we have yet to meet.

i came home from work this morning logged into wiki, scanned a few blogs before logging to chat .  shock. no longer able to talk with friends, share past troubles or new grounds. not able to offer moral support in an insant when needed. wiki chat has closed. hopefuly for the short term, i understand that funding and manning is an issue,somthing that may be able to be resolved (please). I will miss many of my very special friends, people who have been there from the start of all my troubles, who have heard me

as some of you may be aware,  i have been on a weight loss program for exactly a year today. i am at the moment feeling good about my self, and actualy liking myself (not had that feeling for a long long time). total weight loss to date 93lbs, i still have a way to go for target, but taking each day as it comes.

like most of you, i have a lot of fluctuating  emotions to deal with. I never wanted to be in this sorry mess, not my choice. One minute i'm dealing with being on my own. the next i'm a quivering wreck, ready to cry if someone even glanced my way ( or even if they didnt).  I find it