So like the fool I am I went to see the ex today, spent the afternoon with her just like when we were married, roast chicken dinner laugh and joke walk the dog, but it wasn't the same today. It was writtten all over her face that it was over, cliche I know but today she gave me my heart back I gave it to her a long time ago and she has used it and broken it and given it back to me. So now I must start to come to terms with this, move on, like everyone says I should do, easier said than done. Today one life ended , I am now stuck in limbo, pugatory, I want her to be happy, but knowing she is

Two weeks and a day since My wife and I split up, amicably. But I left for her, I was bringing her down, we had discussed this at great length over the months leading up to our separation and we decided it was the best for both of us. Little did she know that I had realised  it was the best for her, and all I have ever wanted was the best for her, and it had become clear that I was not what she wanted. We had tried eighteen month ago we had got back together to try and make it work, and it was better than ever. It was truly wonderful. but recently the cracks had started to show, her signs of

It has been a while since my last entry havent been getting on line much. I have spent the last ten day at home with my wife, it has felt like we never seperated , never spent three month apart, but that bolis down to the fact that she needed me, needed her rock to lean on, needed someone to carry her through her hard times.

Now things have changed, and we have got through her hard times, and now she wants time on her own again. i love this woman more than anything in the world, but i am beginning to see that it will never work out, I am not stupid, she thinks I am, she cant see that I can see