Well after the most horrendous year ever i feel i have something to smile about.

I have finally stopped listening to the soon to be ex husband i feel free for the first time in ages!

And my lovely best friend convinced me when my husband left me to go on holiday with her, i reluctantly agreed but am so glad i did now.

 I fly tuseday morning 11th november and i cant wait the thought of the sun and relaxation is keeping me going when times get hard.

so i will be blogging when i get back and they may even be pictures ha ha

well yesterday the 30th would have been my 4th wedding anniversary and i thought it was going to be horrendous.

I asked for extra shifts so i didn't have time to be at home pondering, and when i finished work my mates rang me to take me to the pub.

I didn't really want to go but knew they would never give in asking, i'm glad i did i had a good laugh and we toasted the fact that i have a second chance at happiness in my life.

I now know that it wasn't my fault that my marriage ended, that i didn't deserve the rubbish i got of him for the years we where together and i certainly don't deserve the

Well i thought i was coping well with it all but i'm getting tired of it all now.

Getting tired of the nastiness that he is giving me, tired of the cheep point scoring and most of all tired of the whole process!

The only saving grace is that i'm free of him!! No more name calling and mental abuse which is worse than physical at times, and no more walking on egg shells!

So it's a matter of putting a smile on my face and to face the world with a positive outlook even if i feel like constantly crying at times.

Things will get better and hopefully it will be over soon. x x