Is there a point at which it is safer to stop it all than to carry on? My life seems unendurable at times. Too much is going on - working two extrememly busy part time jobs, one of which may end in the near future; moody teenage daughter who over a weekend cries, shuns me, then wants to play; decorating the house for sale (yes, still! 7 rooms down now, and I think even though more could be done I will stop when the last one, the problematic one, is finally finished); working on divorce paperwork late into the wee hours; lawyers charging the earth but not really explaining what they are doing;

I feel rubbish at the moment and I feel I need to ‘blog it
out' as it seems to help me. Not because I feel I want sympathy, we are all
going through tough times but if nothing else I want to be honest about how I
feel. I'm sure I'll find my way back to positive but right now I'm in a bit of
a rut I guess.

So my divorce is underway now and it's been a while since this
all this started.  Sometimes it feels
like it was all started just yesterday and sometimes it feels like a lifetime
ago. My STBX is turning into more of a stranger to me with each and every day
and he is moving further and further from

Hello lovely people

I am back again but this time I am not sure how I feel.

At first I was shocked, betrayed and a mix of anger and sadness kept me crying. Now I don't know what I feel. Most of the time I don't think I feel anything, I am in limbo.

I filed for NISI on the 6th of September and have heard nothing since, I don't know if that is normal, a long time or what? We are still living at the same address (he is in a downstairs spare bedroom). If I am cooking it seems pointless to cook for one so I will include hime, and if I happen to be cooking for myself and my daughter again I feed him