I am distraught and got to tell somone so you people are getting it as it's a taboo in my family. Some time ago a member of my family comitted suicide. Nobody really saw it coming and it left a child and mother behind and we all carry guilt for not seeing it coming before.

As a result we are all pretty much aware that this is real, you know, people DO and CAN take their own lives for real. Ordinary people with problems others will always say could have been sorted.

Now I am left. My husband left me, not the other way, but why is it I am the one panicking that he will kill himself?  He's

I guess the way time works to heal eventually, is making it feel  a bit like it does when you find someone you went to school with on Friends Reunited.You'd spend day in day out with this person,good times,bad times,you promise you will always be there for each other, then you leave school and lose touch. Years spent as children - years spent in a marriage/ relationship.You meet up again,you've spent time apart,built memories that don't include each other.Although you have the memories of the past you had together that's what they are,the past, feelings lose the edge they had back then, so

4 hours until he comes here to collect his personal belongings  What personal belongings are they that he needs to collect them?  Clothes he only wears when he was here?  Birth certificate or other papers that could be sent?  Am I going to get some answers?  Is he going to come with a big van or some bags?

Will he bring her?  That will be handy...she can carry his bags on her head.  No, of course not...she wouldn't get a visa  to enter Spain, just like |I will make sure she never gets entry to UK as long as I have breath in my body.  He might be stupid enough to fall for her charms...bloody