6.45 this morning I dropped off my little girl around the STBX's as prearranged. As I am turning the car around I happen to notice "his" car.

I knocked on her door very loudly thinking irrational thoughts and dreading this day. She opens the door and I barge past heading straight for the stairs (my anger completely shot to bits), thankfully she stops me and I don't feel the urge to proceed any further, take a deep breath and turn and leave. I hear my daughter's crying as I depart and it tears me up.

I park next to his car thinking do I smash it up or not? Thankfully again something stops me and

why when most people i know can see im hurting tell me how well my ex is looking now and how happy she is

WTF

i have to say to them did you think she looked unhappy before then when we were married to which they reply no .... they thought we looked very happy together

so why say this to me about her now  

i dont get it, plus it  makes me think of past times which leads to regrets ... i know it was her that changed not me

yeah you will all say it takes 2 to end of marriage well hell no, not in this case it was all her doing, i had no idea this was gonna happen.

answer me this how can you take the

22 December 2008

We are talking about houses again, and the timings of both his and our divorce and what impact that has.  She mentions that although he would not move in to our house at the end of June, she might sell up and move in with him.  She also says that she wants the kids to spend a night or two at his house now that he is in Winsford just so they can get used to being with him.  I say I don't like this idea but can't really give reasons why other than I think its too quick for the kids (and me) to cope with.  She disagrees.

She says she is going to sleep but I can see her getting the