Firstly I want to mention a little boy in my blog, well not so little in fact, was between my 2 eldest children in age. He would have been 12 next birthday but it wasn't meant to be. At the beginning of the week I get a phone call to say that my friend's son, who has Cerebral Palsy had been rushed to Addenbrooke's ITU on a ventilator and that it didn't look like he would be coming home.

I couldn't visit because of strict rules about visitors in ITU and with the current killer virus going round it was immediate family only. It would have also been a 2+ hour drive on the off chance that my

well why have i not come here befor.thinkin that it will change,sleeping in late,not working,self pity,drinkin too much(probally a part of the reason).too depressed to seek help.i am new to these blogs so someone out there help me if this is the wrong place to put down the

I have been a member of Wikivorce for a few months now and have never written a blog. I suppose I have always been a little scared that I may reveal too much about myself and if by any chance my s2bx is on the same site he will recognise me, but what the hell, I will be speaking from the heart here and if he reads it and does recognise me then perhaps he will have a better understanding of why our marriage failed, or at least my conception of why our marriage failed. He is not entirely to blame, no one partner is but if he hadn't been such a controlling and jealous person (coupled with his