Sorry for the delay in blogging about what happened in court on Wednesday. The day and what happened totally wiped me out emotionally and physically and my whole body just gave up. I felt completely exhausted, my muscles ached and my head was pounding.

This week has seen my mind all over the place.

 Any way, left my youngest 2 girls with my Dad at lunchtime and myself and my partner headed into town to get something to eat from the bakers before meeting my solicitor at 1.30pm. Then it happened!

From out of nowhere I sensed something pass my eye and head downward. OMG, I was covered in bird pooh,

I've had a bit of an emotional day. I don't normally get emotional but a few times I've had a tear in my eye. Once when my 5 year old was being her usually jolly self when I was washing up, and then again when my 10 year old was skating up the road on one rollerblade like a skateboard, coming after me to ask if she could go out with her friend. Maybe it's because I know the near future is bleak, or maybe I'm getting hormonal, I am a (male) housewife after all.

I know that these blogs on there own don't give the complete picture, but I need to keep writing it all down as I find it helps.

Hi All

 Well, yesterday was full of excitement, not strictly in the funnest sense thou...

I hadn't slept at all on the Wednesday nite and got up feeling very unwell..I went to sort my boys out and I nearly passed out..Was being very unwell..my oldest bless him (7) got me water and a phone and he then proceeded to help wash and dress his brothers..

I called my ex...not something I'd normally do...but thought something bad was happening to me..next thing I know everything is just happening around me..I'm whisked off to hospital, My doctor feared that they may have been a spread to my brain so off