I am still quite a wiki newbiebut have spent alot of time in and out of chat. 

In the earlier days when I found it hard to speak about my nightmare situation, I found being able to help others gave me a sense of purpose.

Since then, I have learnt how wiki chat works and have found an unbelievable level of support, real friends who really care...and for whom I care right back.

I haven't been able to blog before, it's all too raw  and I thought I'd leave it as a sort of "next stage" in the process thing, for the future.

Tonight, I feel compelled to speak my mind:  I couldn't do it in chat in the

Daughter is crying because I shouted!

I have just read some of the responses to yesterday's blog and now I am bloody upset.  hell I am worth more,   why does he think its alright to buy a few flowers and even then he didn't actually give them to me he just left them in the sink - not the same as giving them to me.....

Yes we could go out to harvester and play happy families - and he says just see how things go = why does he get the opportunity to see how things go ? why am I weak? i should tell him to fuck off and be strong ....he always does what he wants to do

one of the replies to

Dear Blog

Why am I in this situation?

This morning I woke up and husband is in my bed! Granted I have been sleeping in Georgia's beds for weeks and yes I invited him into my bed the other night - but surely he shouldn't just get in it! (only noticed him in it when I went my room to get dressed!)

He said he came up last night and I was asleep so he was waiting for me to come to bed with him....

Well - why I know I had a weak moment a few days ago - but surely he doesn't think a bunch of flowers, box of black magic - and that's it - no conversations, no anything back to our normal lives?

Anyway i