hi all long time no blog just keeping u up to speed if u intrested,

been fab for a while ,work still rubbish but hey sorting that got my first two lessons from a home study course today!!!!!!!

counselling of all things  lol i feel ive moved on and have the capacity to help others ??than worry about how i feel ???

oh im not forgetting about me ..just the reverse i want to be there for people that have gone through what i have and you lot are/have !!my counseller was fantastic when i needed her so inspired me as have some of you wikis...thanks

been karting quite alot too ...oh god wish i could do

Yesterday i had a bad day. But not today. Yesterday was a sunday. usually i try to drown myself in work so i can switch off from my feelings but on sundays i have no meetings, nobody to call. I spent almost all day in bed. Had to drag myself out of bed at 4pm to get something to eat, and even then it tasted like cardboard. Despite sleeping all day i was in bed again early. Guess thats why i was up at 4am tossing and turning. You know how it is, u drift back into sleep two minutes before your alarm goes off. So of course i was i flight mode all day. You know when you're flying and they ask you

I wrote this poem on 1st October 08.

We all weave our own stories

Of what the Truth is

Even when we were  both there

Starring in the play entitled

Our Marriage 

It was good for a while

We agree on that bit

Then it went terribly wrong

With the benefit of hindsight

We agree on that bit too

Where we differ

Cannot find common ground

Is at exactly what point

In the script

Did it all start to unravel

So that the end was inevitable

A ticking timebomb

Leaving only the shrapnels

Of a Once Happy Marriage

And Closeknit Family

Family and Friends cannot believe it

You call me Mad

Unhinched

Gone off the rails

Positively