So, after nearly 1 1/2 years of being unhappily married and wishing I had the strength to leave him - we finally agreed that this marriage wasnt working! - I would move out with our two daughters.

Thankfully, I thought it would be easy - so often had I thought of how I would react; I was feeling strong and wouldnt be "bullied" or "put down" and made to feel insignificant in comparison.

But that all failed - miserably - a few choice words from him and i'm feeling depressed and suicidal again!! - damn - i must not let him bully and push me around.

He has offered me a lump sum of money and an

It is now nine years since I announced to my former husband that he could expect my petition for divorce any day. Ours had not been a happy marriage. The old adage of 'marry in haste and repent at leisure' certainly applied to me. I had known R (as I shall refer to him) for less than six months when I discovered that I was pregnant. Twenty six years ago having a child outside of marriage was still very much frowned upon so in May 1980 R and I tied the knot in the local register office with two friends for witnesses and no guests. I had not told my parents or family as I did not want a fuss

I found out about my wife's affair. Talk about a killer blow! I had been out with a mate to the pub for a quiet drink which had turned into a full blown drinking session, staggering out of the pub at midnight and getting a kebab on the way home. The drinking session was an unusual occurence - it had used to happen every couple of months and then no booze at all in between. I got home and got into bed with my wife. My wife had gone to sleep with the TV on and I felt around under the pillows for the remote control to turn it off. I didn't find the remote control, but I found a mobile phone I