i feel different today

i have woken up this morning feeling different. its hard to explain how very positive feelings for the future, maybe some thing has `clicked` in my brain. my son came in last night he wanted to show me something on facebook, before i could reply he had a video up taken on OW phone posted on ex step daughters face book page of `them` having a wonderful boxing day at the exs mums house.( my ex isnt my sons father, but i must say his father has been very supportive, ) my lovely son has been searching for stuff about them and he never told me. he s only 13 and i think this has affected him far more than i realised, he was so so angry ive never seen him like that before, we have a very open and honest relationship so we sat on the sofa had a long chat, i told him, not to look for anything else, he said but its all evidence, i told him we are better off without him, if he hadnt cheated with her it would have been with some one else at any stage, he hates the man with a passion. i told him i loved him to bits, we had a cuddle and he calmed down, bless him. so this morning ive vowed to start to move on,its coming up to 2 months of his leaving for the OW, no contact since new years eve, it will take time, but ive got to make a good life for me and my son, he s already pleased with what ive done to the house, he has started bringing his friends over more often, if i manage to keep the house (still ongoing with the solicitor) its going to be financially clipppling but i can just do it, i can get another job, or take in a lodger. we`ve a big log cabin at the end of the garden im going to turn it into some where my son and his mates can `hang out` get him a dart board some chairs some music. fingers crossed it works financially. i want, in the future to meet a nice `loyal` man, i no their out there some where. i want my ex to come back and beg for forgiveness so i can tell him NOT EVEN IF HELL FREEZES OVER YOU COMPLETE AND UTTER T....R!!!!!!!!!!!! the thoughts of the ex and his new one have been at the back of my mind today, but im pushing them away, their welcome to each other been to see the ducks again today after work but they were all asleep ! maybe when i wake up tomorrow ill feel down again, but i hope not after today raybird xxxxx